Friday, July 17, 2009


So I'm sitting here watching "16 and Pregnant" yeah I know bad but it's just one of those shows I'm stuck on. Either way it brought a lot of my feelings to the surface. Recently I had a IUD placed, I know it's not permanent but would at least like to get our money's worth and keep it in for a year. Either way the emotions that came to the surface had me bawling like a baby. Reason being.....I WANT ANOTHER BABY. Yes I know I should be thankful for what I have, I have a beautiful, happy, smart red headed boy.

Rob and I decided to not have another baby right now, well we decided this a month or so ago when we started having more money issues. We both know that we are not financially stable enough right now to have/support another child. God knows that we have enough love and room in our hearts for another baby. Which in reality really sucks! I am so mad with the economy right now, not being able to get raises, not being able to get a better paying job, mortgage companies and loan companies coming down on us. The price of EVERYTHING going up. There is just not enough.

I know that some day we WILL have another child. But at the same time Ian is already 17 month pregnant and I don't want my babies to be many years apart in age.

Sorry for all my rambling, and whining....but hey isn't that what this thing is for? To get your emotions, feelings, drama, thoughts out on?


  1. Get it all out. Better to write it all down and then when you are ready revisit it later on.

    I know times are tough we are all truely feeling the pinch. I know how you would love to have another baby and I know how much you wanted Ian, but waiting is the best thing to do. See where you are at come fall and go from there. I waited and my kids are 3 years apart and it has been a lot easier than I think having them close together. You have two in diapers and two that demand your attention at the same time...are you ready for that? I know you could do it, but enjoy this time you have with Ian and Rob. I would hate to know that you lose your job or house and have another mouth to worry about feeding.

    Cheer up T - things will happen when they are meant to happen. There is always a reason for everything.

  2. I know how you feel. I want another one so bad, but it's just not the time. The right time will come and you will have another perfect little baby! And I will be there to be your doula this time!!

  3. Dude. Trust me. I think I'll always want another baby. It aches sometimes, doesn't it?

  4. THank you guys for all the words of encouragment. As much as we want a baby right now, we know we need to wait a bit until we get some things figured out with the house etc. Not to mention we would have to move downstairs and have the two kiddos upstairs. Of course we would have the newborn with us in the beginning.